Okay. I admit it. I have been really rotten at this. I haven’t posted in far too damn long, and never with anything other than a goodbye comment to someone who recently passed.

I guess I just needed some new inspiration.

I seem to have found it... I went back to the theatre. And, when I say the theatre, I don't mean a movie house, I mean I went back to the thing that drew me to acting so many years ago... the legitimate stage.

You see... I recently joined a theatre company, and have been busy doing one show after another. I have had very few moments to myself, and I have been exhausted at the end of every day, but for the first time in a long time... I feel like an artist again. I feel fulfilled on that deep level that used to be the bread of life to me. I feel like someone I haven't really known since right after I got to North Carolina. And definitely haven't seen around since right after I moved to New York... before this "business" crushed the life out of my then dreams... before I became disillusioned, before I started to despise anything to do with any of it.

I don't feel that way anymore; in fact, I feel renewed. I feel like an actor again, and whether or not the "industry" ever takes note of me or my work is now of no consequence.

I won't say I wouldn't like that. I wouldn't be so brash as to say that, just as I think, you would not be so stupid as to believe it. But, it doesn't drive me anymore, my work does. And, that... has made all the difference.